Random Thoughts By A Random Person

It's been a while that I have been on here. Since 2012 to be exact. So much has changed, life is so different now, but I felt I needed to start writting again. I needed to start letting some of what I have been holding on to go. My thoughts are still random and so the post will continue to be so follow along if you'd like but you gotta keep up. At this moment in my life, I feel broke, unsure of what I feel, how I feel, what I should feel. Because I don't. There are many moments where I feel NOTHING. Just empty. Hollow.

I have not been on here to post in a long time. But last night I had a weird dream. And course as all dreams go they start off weird and leave us with questions. But there was something from this particular dream that definitively stood out and made me wake up wondering. I will write everything I remember about the dream. I was laying in bed, and there was a computer with a web cam right in front of my bed, and there were some oriental kids on the other end, but then on my end too, they were setting it all up. I was laying there ready to go to bed as all of this was going on. Then they all left the computer screen turned black, and I remember asking Danny as we lay there do you think the camera is off? Cause they could of just made the screen go black but the camera is still on. Weird I know. Anyway, next thing I remember, I was asleep but was awaken by this mist light blue light that I saw hovering above my bed, the weird thing about it was that it just felt so real, I looked up at ...

I'm a little upset that I didn't post this dream earlier cause I remembered so many details, but now I'll just write about what I do can remember. So I remember we were walking down a dirt hill, I was with a guy, I kind of remember Kevin Miller for some reason (an old co-worker of mine). Anyway, he was telling me how that hill was haunted by some old man. And as he was talking about that we noticed there was a kid in front of us walking down the hill, bouncing a basketball, he would then pass it to the left and the ball would bounce a few times and then get passed back to the kid. Weird I know lol. I remember that freaked me out! I was like DID YOU SEE THAT!! OMG your right it is haunted!! Then next thing I remember the ground started shaking, and then I was with my kids we were running up a hill to get away from the water that was rising, Danny as he would in real life was saying it's ok, you can stay here we will be fine, I course didn't listen to him and took the...

So I had one of those crazy dreams the other night. But this dream was one that made me wake up almost hyperventilating, I was breathing heavy and woke up all freaked out! So it started at Livemercial but course it was not actually LM it was an office downtown some big city in a huge building. Anyway, Dee Dee was in my dream too. I was walking with her going around saying goodbye to everyone. My son and daughter for some reason were with me. As we started going around, the kids walked away from me. I just figured they were going by someone. So we kept going around for awhile. Then finally I noticed they were not around, and I began to freak out! I stared to ask everyone around if they had seen them and no one had. I walked outside the building and it was like freaking New York City, people walking all over, crowds and crowds of ppl. I FREAKED OUT! I told myself I'm never going to find them! I started to run around like a nut looking for them, calling people who I thought were with ...

I had a bad and weird dream last night, I had not had a dream like that in awhile so I want to share it. It of course makes no sense like all dreams and is all over the place but just was weird and woke me up and I couldn't go back to sleep. These are the things I remember from my dream. I was at work, I was working on the computer, my boss was there, it was my office then suddenly I'm standing at "work" but it's a restaurant and guess who stops by? Uhuh the one and only Chef Gordan Ramsay!! He was with someone else apparently famous lol. So anyway he wants this yummy strawberry type margarita, it was a specific one, all I can remember is like pudding or yogart, idk lol. So I freak out cause I'm like we don't have a blender here, we don't even have strawberries lol. Next thing you know taadaa! My bosses wife is here, looking through a huge walk in cooler for strawberries, I walked in there and said I didn't even know that was there?? lmao! I was so...

So this is my second day and well I'm still wanting to do so much all at the same time. I just feel like I will run out of time so I'm trying to do it all at once. Today's day went like this: 7:30 got up worked on resume and got kids off to school 8:30 headed off to Gym 10:00 Left gym and headed to walmart to buy material to cover my dinning room chairs 10:30 went to pick up mom to teach me to using sewing machine to cover my chairs. After that I lost track of time and I was on and off working on my resume while she sewed. I learned the basics and it seems pretty easy! I think I'll be making curtain, hemming cloth and so much from now on! Or I can get a job sewing! (probably not) We finished covering 2 chairs at about 4 or 5 and got all of the other pieces to finish the other 2 for tomorrow. Exited to finally have these chairs covered! These chairs are 14 years old! Its still the first dinning room set Danny and I bought when we first got married. It's in great cond...