It's been a while

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It's been a while that I have been on here. Since 2012 to be exact. So much has changed, life is so different now, but I felt I needed to start writting again. I needed to start letting some of what I have been holding on to go. My thoughts are still random and so the post will continue to be so follow along if you'd like but you gotta keep up. At this moment in my life, I feel broke, unsure of what I feel, how I feel, what I should feel. Because I don't. There are many moments where I feel NOTHING. Just empty. Hollow.

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